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here's a tldr in case you don't want to read all my yapping: in 2022, when i was around 19, i was accused of grooming. this is true, although i didn't realize it at the time. and because of the sudden allegations and having been cut off from any kind of social life i had, throughout these past few years, i had met and befriended some horrible, disgusting people who have encouraged me to do some horrible, disgusting things. this is not an excuse for the actions that I made as an adult, but some context. while these things ARE true, i've seen accusations about me that i absolutely do NOT agree with, people saying that i'm a zoophile (i don't even consume feral art so this is just baseless lmao), that i've "groomed over 80 children", unbelievable that people even believe this absurd garbage. also at the end, i wanted to shed light on some of the deplorable things i have seen since thenso if you're reading this, you probably know that i've had many allegations made against me for many years. and yes, the ORIGINAL allegations are true. i have had allegations thrown at me since the DAY i turned 18, i was called a pedophile for making a fucking deez nuts joke to a minor on my 18th birthday lmfao. but that's not what this is about, the original allegations that are true are the ones from late 2022-early 2023.and i know that a lot of people will see this as a sob story, but it's not, and unfortunately my situation is not one that someone can easily put themselves in my shoes for so it's not easy for me to explain my thought process over the past few years and why i acted the way i did, but i'll try anyway so please try to see my perspective here (and remember this is absolutely NOT an excuse, this is just kinda the buildup to what happened and an explanation for how i acted afterward):since covid lockdown, i've had absolutely zero social life outside the internet and i ended up getting my first taste of popularity through some underground music communities that were very, very toxic and i took that toxicity into the FNF community where I got even more popular. but that toxicity and "dark humour" i had brought with me from the underground rap scene was absolutely not cool in the FNF community, so occasionally i would let slurs slip out accidentally and eventually got called out for it.ok i'm writing this and i suddenly realized that i was just gonna write my fuckin life story but i'm not gonna do that, and i'll just cut to the important shitin 2022, after leaving the fnf community, i became the most popular i had ever been under the name "nekozuna". it was a level of popularity i had never experienced before and i felt egotistical and powerful, often treating my friends and fans like shit just because i felt like i could. and then came the incident in November, i think. i had just turned 19 and i used my popularity and power for bad things. To everyone I've hurt, I'm sorry for what I did, and those decisions I made, I regret very much.But it's been too long for me to just apologize now, so I wanna talk about the years that followed.It's been almost 3 years now, and so much has happened in these 3 years. A lot of corruption, darkness, drama & just evil shit.I had no friends and I thought that the only friends I could make were other people who did horrible things, and these people were PROUD of it. They made me believe that I was the one who was being wronged, and that the things I did were okay. I've had tried on multiple occasions to break free from these groups of people, but was always dragged right back. I met so many fucked up people in so many communities that I never even imagined could exist. I have been having an internal, mental battle with myself, wanting to break away from these people but not wanting to be alone again. Now, in 2025, I have completely cut them all off and I have a new and amazing group of friends that I made through my community, a friend group that doesn't enable and encourage me to do harmful things to myself and everyone around me.This is the start of a new era in my life, a road to recovery that should've begun years ago. I am sorry to every person that has ever been hurt or manipulated by me, and I wish you the very best.The next part of this page will be about other people's actions so if you don't care about that then you can click off now.And now, I want to shed some light on some of the things that I've seen over the past few years.
I have seen widely beloved creators do things so unbelievably disgusting and I've had drama channels sending REAL minors to my DMs as unsuccessful "bait" to get more content out of me. Things like this have happened countless times since 2023, and I have almost no evidence for any of this, which makes my word not very credible, but I want to, at least, get the word out there, something I've been wanting to do for a long time. And I will be throwing out some heavy accusations here with absolutely zero evidence, but hopefully my testimony will get people to look into it more.Kittydog;
Someone I considered a friend at one point, I have learned things about her that have gotten swept under the rug and treated like nothing. In 2023, a friend of mine who was 16 at the time (Kittydog would've been 19-20), was in a call with Kittydog while my friend was in their pool. My friend had shrooms with them (yk the drug), and Kittydog was constantly encouraging my friend to keep taking more, and more, leading to my friend almost overdosing while in their pool.Another thing about Kittydog that is going on as we speak that I want to bring awareness to, is that she is knowingly allowing an ex friend of mine who goes by the names poken/wenton/juli3, to groom multiple of her underage fans. And it's not like poken is keeping it a secret, they publicize what they're doing, and they're proud of it!anyway, yap session over.

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